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Message to a Survivor

When I dare to be powerful, to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid. ~ Audre Lorde

Message of Healing

It took years to accept it wasn't my fault. It will take years to accept myself as a survivor. My way of healing comes from two sources: therapy and writing. Writing is my first love and something that keeps me sane. Finding an actual good therapist, it is hard to come by because I don't want advice or a diagnosis. I just want to be heard for once.

I... I... I... Feel stuck trying to make sense after what happened. Why did this have to happen again? Why did he continue on? I never gave him a yes, I never gave him a no. I couldn't say anything at all. I was high and blacked out on the floor. I... Thought I was his friend. I thought he cared for my family. Both of them, I thought they were someone I could trust. I didn't say yes or no as a kid. I didn't say yes or no as an adult. But, I still felt as if it was my fault.

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